A letter to my best friend on her birthday

Preface: This letter is specifically addressed to my very best friend, Madeline. I am very fortunate to have many good friends and I thank God for the opportunity to be in their life each and every day. 

Madeline,

Words will never be adequate in explaining how much you mean to me. You are my person in every sense of the way. You are the sunshine to my gloom, the eternal optimist to my realism, and so on and so forth.

Christina Yang has a great quote about Meredith Grey, and it goes like this; "If i murdered someone she's the person I'd call to help me drag the corpse across the living room floor. She's my person." 

You are my person, in each and every way.

I will never forget the day I met you. You were the cute, slightly awkward homeschool girl who was talking about camping.

I was the rebellious public school child whose parents never took her camping. 

I guess to this day I'm still the rebel, and you will always be the sweetheart.

Maddi, you bring so much joy to my heart. You never question, but you listen. You do not judge. I know I can tell you anything and hear an "I love you," before I hear a "you shouldn't be doing that."

It is rare to find a friend like you.

In the midst of the darkest and deepest battles with depression, you have never once left my side. You don't question what i am feeling, and you do't pretend to understand. You are simply there, and that is all I can ask and more.

There is a terrifying reality sinking in that we will most likely be 3,000 miles apart for a long time.

I am so scared to live big adult life without you by my side. College has been fine, but now that i am faced with the reality of life without your physical presence, I find myself terrified.

Anyone who knows us knows that we love to spend every waking moment together. Whether it is mindless Target trips, spontaneous road trips, or times to go watch really crappy movies, I love being with you.

You embody good, grace, compassion, and love in every sense. You are the most radically loving person I know. I mean who else buys bags of groceries for the homeless, simply because? 

I learn from you in so many ways, and truthfully I somewhat aspire to be you!

There are moments in my friendship with you that will last forever. How you loved my father is something I will never forget. I will also never forget how you stayed with me for an entire week when he passed. That unwavering commitment to me has left an indelible mark on my heart. 

I remember a summer four years ago where you went through a deeply painful time. Your ability to forgive someone who wounded and wronged you so badly is something that will always blow me away.

Your family is my second family. I am so proud to call myself an honorary "Stouffer," and am proud to say that I have won the coveted FDA. 

Madeline, you are a special one.

You can light up a room with that infectious laugh. You have changed lives with your servant's heart. And even when you endure your own physical pain, you never once complain. 

Can I tell you a secret? This summer I cried big when I was driving home from your house. I watched you love your mom with the most sincere, earnest, and truthful love there is.

I know there are days when you ask God "why?" But I also know that you extend the most amazing love and compassion to your momma. It is a blessing to see your relationship with her, because I know you do not take any second with her for granted.

How you love Jesus and seek after Him each and every day will always leave me in awe.

Even when life gets tough, you know that a deeper and stronger love will sustain you.

Anyone that knows you knows how fortunate they are to be connected to such a special soul.

I am so grateful to call you my best friend, my person, and my Maddi.

I love you forever!

-Ellie